This past summer there was a tug-o-war going on in my brain. I had the decision of going to Indiana Wesleyan University, or wait for it.... move to New Zealand. Most people think no question, New Zealand, but it was a lot harder than that for me. I had a lot of scholarships for IWU, and my sister and best friend go there. That would have been the easiest, and most comfortable decision. I prayed about it for a while and still didn't know. Maybe either choice would have been the "right" choice. Everyday the decision weighed on me and there wasn't a second I didn't think about it. I was so frustrated with everyone constantly asking me what I was going to do, or telling me what I should do. I was looking for God to walk into my room and tell me what I wanted to hear, but that never happened.
I did finally make up my mind, and I remember the exact moment because I felt such freedom. I decided to go with my parents as missionaries to New Zealand. I don't know what I'm going to do when I get there, or how long I will stay, but I'm going. I do believe this is where God wants me, but it's still sometimes hard to see. I will just have trust that His plan for my life are way better than mine. I am choosing to live an uncomfortable life in the comfort of my God. I heard a quote said by Corrie Ten Boom that is such a great reminder of the power of our God, she said, "Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God." I don't know my ten year plan or even my one year plan, I'm just following the Leader. God doesn't always give us every piece to the puzzle, but when we get to the missing piece He will put it in for us.
